Our First Look

Our first photos of our sweet little baby. The ultrasound went great.

Joe and I were pretty nervous and glad when this was over and

everything was fine. We never had a 20wk US with Abby so never

saw such clear images of all the baby's parts! It was awesome to say

the least. My eyes were "leaky" for most of the scan. I just felt so

lucky and seriously amazed to be looking at that screen. The baby

was moving around quite a bit, Abby even got to see the baby open and

close it's hand. So Cool! We didn't find out if we are having a boy or girl,

much harder to do when you actually have a choice- I prefer to not have to decide

for sure. When the US tech was done I asked her so now you know if we

are having a boy or girl? Not fair, why don't you just tell me!! but she

wouldn't, said to call her in a couple days if I really changed my mind. :)

Then we got to hang with the Yates' in Seattle doing the last Flower and Garden show, the aquarium, a super yummy pizza place called Piecora's, and a hotel pool. So nice.

So it turns out that this pregnancy so far I feel a little bit crazy. You all know, I'm pretty level emotionally, laid back, takes a bit to get me riled up right? Well...... the two days before today I was just horribly grumpy. I didn't want to smile, didn't want anyone to try to make me laugh or cheer me up i just wanted to be grumpy. I said things that i knew were snappy and borderline bi*chy and i knew it but it still didn't matter. Today I feel like I've been given some lovely stimulant in my sleep making me talk a lot, laugh more, have lots of energy and basically feel like I was on top of the world. What the ....
I swear this did not happen to me last time or maybe its just been so long that I forget. I distinctly remember thinking with my pregnancy with Abby- " what are all those people talking about that say women get all crazy, emotional, and mean." Well, maybe i get it now and i don't really like it. I mean the good day was great but the others i could have done without. Sorry Joe and Abs- only 22 more weeks to go!

Friday Nite

We had creme fresh and smoked salmon.
We had a yummy dinner cooked for us and just got to "be."
I sighed a lot- a sign that you are comfortable, that you are with
people that you love and love you and are seriously in the present.
This is how it is meant to be.
Thanks Han and Cal for coming to Sequim.

Happy 6th Birthday Sweetie.

Joe surprised Abs by taking the day off and whisking her off to Pt. Defiance Zoo and Aquarium - one of her fav places to go all time. They even got to start out at the Buzz with a hot cocoa!
Momma stayed home to get things done and ready for birthday cupcakes with the fam.













Abs showing off her new duds from her Aunt Jenny and also that she grew 4 inches in a year- whoa.

Goes without saying this was a highlight!

She couldn't wait to tell me about the squirrel that was her best friend. "Mom, we even got to feed it chips. Chips Mom, really." huh.

Birthday night with the fam, chocolate cupcakes with blue whip cream, yummm. Oh and the pink fizz, flub- what was that stuff Tess? Anway, the kids scarfed it and Jake actually was trying to get the directions to make it.

A couple days later a trip to Silverdale with some buddies to Chuck E. Cheese. I know some of you are shaking your head in disbelief that we would actually bring our child there. The kids had a blast, the parents survived and she was informed this is a one time deal, no more bday's at the Cheese! She loved it though.

Me and Abs towards the end of the party week. Both looking a bit tired?

Happy birthday my girl. You are wonderful, opinionated, strong and growing up so fast. We love you with everything we got!

Another Makes 4

I just realized that there hasn't been an official post or any for that matter on what will be happening in July.
If everything continues as it is going now, universe willing there will be labor to go through and a sweet baby face to see around July 20th give or take a few weeks of course. We are esctatic and apprehensive all at the same time. Some days I just keep telling myself to take deep breaths and talk myself down from all that is scary. Other days I feel absolutely calm and at peace.
It is a day at a time here, trying to stay present, listening to others as well as myself, leaning on others when it all feels scary and trying to hold them up a little when I feel strong. I am so fortunate to have all the love around me that I do.

Night time

Tonight as Abby was going to bed.

Abs" Momma, before the baby comes you should sort of train me or something so I don't need you to lay down with me to go to sleep. Because when the baby comes and when i get my high bed you aren't going to be climbing up there right? Plus you are going to need to rest and some quiet time."

Me: (trying not to laugh too much) Yeah, you are so right sweetie.

I get up a few minutes later and she asks is her little voice if i will check on her, of course I will I say. She then proceeds to curl up with her 4 ft. long rattle snake her Papa bought her at the zoo and falls asleep on her own.

A few times in the last few days she'll start to ask me to help her with something, usually involving getting dressed and then she quickly says, before i have a chance to mutter a word, almost to herself, " Oh yeah, I'm 6, I can do that." and she goes off and does it for herself.
Wow.

Blessed

May you always have work for your hands to do.

May your pockets hold always a coin or two.

May the hand of a friend always be near you.

-Irish Blessing