Monday, May 17, 2010

Intention

So.... i'm typing on the laptop that has been MIA for a few months due to some wireless network security problem that i couldn't figure out. Today one call to olypen and problem fixed in seriously less than 1 minute..... and i've been dreading dealing with it knowing how much time on the phone this was going to take. I love it when THAT kind of prediction is wrong. Lesson: ok to ask for help and not try to figure it out by yourself.... what????

Joe said this morning, I can't believe its May 17th already, what is happening?
Time is marching, marching right on whether we like it or not. There has been a lot going on, tons of working for Joe, a new lawnmower and a renewed vigor for mowing this crazy spring grass, trips to magical kinkaid island, on-call weekends, putting my sweet horse Sage down, weekend visitors, complicated work situations taking so much mental energy, dinners with good friends and finally this weekend a trip to the beach in the motor home. Feels like we've been wanting/trying to get camping for a month.

At the beach... kids screaming, laughing, boogie boarding, surfing, burying in mud, lotioning and wetsuiting, tidepooling, fallng, hiking, barefooting, night beaching, calvadosing, stargazing, sunseting, eating, cooking, napping, laughing more, knowing, loving and a bit of missing.

My word for this post is Intention. When so many things are unknown in this life, why things happen the way they do... all we can control is ourselves (most days) and how we chose to be and to see. My goal is to have more intention, to really be where i am, not 2 steps ahead. To live each day and at the end know that it has been enough. I'm holding you up auntie RoJean and thinking about you, sending so much love your way.

4 comments:

jwilskey said...

my love is with you and auntie Ro too... i like this new "intention". miss you.

Mark, Jessica, Jakob, Sarah and Roxy said...

Love to you and the family.
Been thinking about you a lot lately.
Sarah got a new toy horse that she calls "shave" which means "Sage", she also has one named Willow. I hope you are feeling good about the decision with Sage, and I'm sorry you even had to make a decision.
I love you tons and miss you more! I so agree with the "intention", I am just fretting over our life and living in the condo, we want to get out, but is it worth more money, shouldn't we just stay and save money, and enjoy life. AAH, life is just too hard, nobody told me it was going to be this way. Decision after decision, marraige, childbirth, schooling, health, housing, working - it's too much, too much going on to even think about slowing down and enjoying it!

Us 4 said...

We miss you guys, sounds like life is great and i hear ya about work taking it out on you mentally....talk to ya soon on skype now your puter is working. oh and Jobe said the other morning it is so sad sage died, but grandpa don can ride her now.

Wendy said...

Jac- thanks for your love :)
Jess- love it that Sarah calls her shave. I know what you mean about how sometimes life just feels hard, too many decisions that feel like BIG ones. Miss you, too.
Tess- thanks for making me smile, love it that Jobe says grandpa Don is riding her. :) Nice to hear your voice on our machine this weekend. Skype is sooooon! its up and ready, need to see your face!