A Nod to Creating

I read some things today in a book about numbers.

Adding together and getting who you are.  

Its wild to read to yourself, out loud to others, things about yourself that you thought only you knew.

I'm not sure what it confirms.... that the world is numerically based, that we're all meant to be just how we are.

Sure there are things that are easy for each and in turn things that are hard but it makes the whole.

To just decide to like it, to be easier on others, to be more understanding and to take things less personal.

That maybe its not because something is wrong but because its just the way we are and we get to decide to stay on, to stay the course, or change direction.  

I feel far away from myself and a strong need to create.

To create space.... and time..... something tangible..... to run.....to emote somewhere safe that others won't have to be effected by it or feel it in some personal way..... the lack of expectations.  Sounds like running away but maybe its running to.....