Remembering

Things that I had forgotten.......
That buzzing that you get in your head from lack of sleep but somehow you get used to it.
How it is possible to not remember if you got up and changed a diaper in the middle of the night.
How sad I felt when she started crying real tears.
How long you can actually stare at your child asleep or awake and be totally entertained and in love.
How they smell and just how many times you can kiss a baby in a day.
How good it feels to re-enter the world and start to feel like you are getting back to normal.
Just how good it feels to NOT be pregnant.
And how much hope resides in such a little being that sometimes you feel your heart can't take it.